Champagne and tears.

This is my second post about champagne.
Can you tell it's my favorite?
At least it made saying goodbye easier.
I have not cried this much in a very long time. I feel like my fun, care free life is over. I feel as if Im forcing myself to grow up all of a sudden, without warning. Because I am. I have left everything that is comfortable to me, and everyone that loves me, for a place that is outside my comfort zone, where I don't know what will happen. I don't have my loving mother to fall back on anymore. yeah, I have my dad, but that is very very different. I'm scared and I'm worried and Im starting to think That maybe I'm making a mistake. I'm not. I miss my best friend. you really don't realize how much someone means to you untill you have to leave them. When someone has been in your life every day for 4 years, and all of a sudden their not just 10 minutes away, it's extremely hard to deal with. What if I change? What if you change?