stressin'

I have been working so much lately.
holy shit.
seriously, every day. I barely have time for school work. I had to do my paper today, three days early, just so i would have it done in time because i work allll weekend and a double on sunday. FML.
i seriously better have a fucking amazing paycheck.
after today i work 4 days in a row, have wednesday off, then work another 6 days in a row. i have never worked that much in my entire life. i guess thats normal for most people, but its stressing me the fuck out.

i am thankful to be staying busy though. that way i dont have to think about dieting and all that shit and hopefully i can get back to my routine and lose a few pounds.
ive been feeling really shitty mentally lately. i dont know what it is.
not very confident.
not very sure of things.

i miss knoxville a whole lot.
i wanna come home and see Gucci, and go to some shows, and smoke hookah in my room with a cute boy, and sleep in my own bed in my own room with my shit all over the walls. i miss my mom. i miss my friends. i still dont have anyone i can confide in here. no one to talk to about things. yeah, i have people i can call up, but thats not the same. i want to talk my shit out with my friends face to face.
so frustrating.
very very stressed lately.
and ive been smoking way way way way wayyyy too many cigarettes. its disgusting and i cant afford it anymore, but i cant stop.
ugh.