monster

You cant stop.
its a fucking monster that will never leave you.
it consumes you, its all you think about.
you will never be what you want to be.
you will never be THAT good.
life isnt fair, and you got the shit end of the deal.
dont look, you'll only hurt yourself.
dont talk, nobody gets it.
"its just a phase." "it'll get better." "yeah, i do that too."
no, you dont. you dont know. you dont understand.
you dont spend days crippled by your thoughts.
paralyzed by what you see.
you dont know why you dont see the point in getting up.
you spend days in hiding, feeling like your not worth it.
you cant even look at yourself. words cant describe how angry it makes you.
you keep fucking up.
your just hurting yourself every day to reach a point youll never get to.
its the biggest battle that you'll never win.
but you would never know.
you dont see what i see.