In case you wanted to know

Haven't had much time for blogging lately.
My mind has been completely focused on my admissions stuff for FIDM, lately.
So far, I have written and re-written my Admissions essay and written my Academic Explanation essay. They are not completely perfect yet, but I think they are pretty close to being finished. Tomorrow i will start gathering materials for my entrance project which includes making up a name for a company, writing a paragraph or so about the demographic of my company, and then putting together five fully accessorized outfits (evening-wear, casual, office attire, etc.) on paper, and coming up with price points for them. Shouldn't be too terribly difficult. Im not worried about what outfits im going to choose, im just worried about writing about the demographic and then making the project look good. Im so nervous that it won't be good enough. But, im giving it everything i've got, so it better be! Im so so so excited/nervous about this whole thing. If i get accepted, i will be the happiest/luckiest girl in the world. busy busy busyyy.

And because of all of this, i have been smoking wayyyyy too many cigarettes, and drinking way too much caffeine.
It will all be worth it later, i hope.

Im about to start reading this book called "I Am Not Myself These Days". looks really good. we'll see!

Louis Vuitton bongs?!

OK,

so i made my decision. Im going to take a semester at Saddleback and then transfer to FIDM in the spring. By then, ill have a place of my own in LA and a great job at a clothing store hopefully.
I was really excited to find out that i still had time to apply at FIDM for the fall semester, and over all that is what i really want to be doing, but i made the decision to go to Saddleback first because, even though i have plenty of time to apply to the other school, I still feel like i have to rush to get all of the stuff done in time. Also, with the classes ill be taking at community college, I'll be more educated in my major and have more experience and build better relationships with people so that i have better options of people to get reccommendations from. Overall, i feel i'd be better prepared to apply at FIDM if i had a little bit more time to learn and do the stuff i have to do. So, even though i was really excited to just go straight to fashion school, it will be better this way, and the excitement will happen soon enough. I'm still excited to start accomplishing something, start working towards something. Only good things will come, as long as i work hard. which i have every intention of doing.


On another note. i've been eating horribly lately.
too much of wayyy too unhealthy shit.
whats wrong with me? I dont do that. I know better than that.
Why can't i just go back to being super healthy all the time.
I need to so bad, or im going to get fat again. that can never ever happen.
I need to do this again. I can do this. ugh.


oh AND, i just got kicked out of my brother's room. apparently i was cock blocking. JESUS...

OH YES.

Muzz found my Ray Bans. :D
yayayayayay THANK GOD.
i was really bummed there, for a few days.

change of plans,mckay's and parliaments.

whoah.
spoke with an Advisor from FIDM today, and apparently they dont start classes untill October. But my time to sign up for classes at Saddleback is now. So do i sign up anyways as a back up plan and risk wasting all that money if i get into FIDM? or do I take a risk and apply at FIDM and just wait and see what happens? i would just hate to not get accepted at FIDM and then have spent all that time waiting, and be left without a school to go to this semester. I dont want to waste any more time. I wanted to start working towards my dreams NOW. I dont know what to do...
also, if i got accepted to FIDM, that would mean i dont have to move untill October or maybe mid-September, which would be wayy cool.
decisions, decisions...

I went to Mckay's today to try and find "The Bell Jar." I found it, but it was still 8 dollars. And being almost broke, like i am, thats still more than i feel like paying. It was cheaper at target, believe it or not. like 5 bucks.
I can't believe I have never really checked out the books at Mckay's before. I found soo many that i want.
ugh, hate being broke. Also, they have a pretty decent collection of books on fashion. Needless to say, i want them all.

I think i smoke over a pack a day now. At least, thats what it seems like. That is fucking disgusting. and expensive.
Im going to die of cancer and have wrinkles by the time im like, 25. I want to quit so badly, but i can't.

amazing shirts- Scott B. Allcorn w. Illustrator Sam Cotton, Vol 1 "Book of Geo"

I absolutely love these shirts.
Scott Allcorn worked together with print designer/illustrator Sam Cotton to create Vol 1 'Book of Geo', a study of surface taken from human anatomy,skins in animals, and more recognizable textures in fabrics.
The prints were created by being painted on canvas first. Digital print was only used to allow the fabric to drape and move, but the paint-like texture is still retained because of being created on canvas first.
my favorite is the Sting-ray skin print.

R.I.P

my beloved Ray Bans.
my favorite sunglasses in the whole entire world.
the PERFECT pair for me.
lost, forever. :(
i am super upset about it, actually.